laziness had ruled over my life. skipping lesson and slp all i want. and exams are drawin near.. zzz!!!!~ almost forget what have i done for the past 1 wk..!!! ha!!!
last wk was totally burnt out by the NDOC practices.. and my hands are totally wore out. super tiring. coz very pain oso. but i love playin that. and now the practice is over. im startin to feel sad. coz i missed playing Djembes~ lolx.. it is a whole new experience for me. =) and i shld say i juz love our performance. yea~
had cg on friday. played for praise. and helped in ministering. almost had my guitar pick go flying again. but thank God juz nice Sarah ended the praise~ lolx! cg was great. but i was super tired. reached hme. almost half dead. meet up with my baobei~ so long never see her. i missed her.. haa!!
went for service on saturday. served for choir. great time praising and worshippin the LORD. and it is pst Mike's delieverance service. halfway thru the service i start to have this fear in me. i have totally no idea why is that so. coz i always love delieverance. seein all the demons gt cast out!! WHOOTS!!
but... i felt scared. the fear in me wasnt that great till i realli shiver and show it out. juz feelin uneasy. served for the ministering session. the forecast of the songs that we gng to sing is changed!! lolx. after serving. went back to join my cg. and they are sitting at the other end of the row. and leaving me ALONE at the other end.
and pst starts to teach us hw to identify whether is the devil in us manifesting anot. and when he touched on the issue of fear. the fear in me grew like never b4. and i start to fidget ard and even have thoughts of runnin out of the hall. but i stayed thru.
and i quickly ran over to my cg and sit with them. when Sarah went down. i quickly took her seat and hold on to Meifong. everybody was shocked. coz nv did i react in this manner b4. and they start askin me what happen. am i scared of what? and i dun even know what to answer them. den Sarah came back and saw me reactin in this manner. she laughed at me and commanded me, Meifong and Xiuli to go dwn.
this is de 2nd time that i responded to delieverance. i remember the first time i juz keep cryin. nth much happen. but this time. i will definately remember it!!! coz i started manifesting even b4 someone laid hands on me. i juz keep screamin away. and yelling. i tried to calm myself dwn and went forward.. every step that i toOk, i will move back oso. haa!! and soon after. sis Charmaine came and prayed for me.
yes. im tormented by evil spirits during my slps. i always had dreams on hw ppl tried to take away my life. nt jus once. but within juz tis yr. i had them ard 5times. 2similar dreams. consecutively. though i tried to act cool abt it. but i realise they keep occuring again and again.
immediately when she laid her hands on my forehead. i start to feel this urge to yell.. and i yelled like never before. and even hiss! lolx!!! i even tried to run away. and even tried to pull off my ears. thank God i toOk off my bigbig earrings b4 i went dwn. if nt i thinK i'll be bleeding~ LOLx.. and i fell. she asked me to loOk into her eyes for 3times. all 3times i tried my best to turn my face away. and even screamed into her face.. and i cried like never b4. it is jus like cryin out all the sorrows in me. nevertheless. after that. i felt so relieve.!
and i wanna thank God that im nt violent! ha! Xiuli tried pulling down Meifong's jeans. and she even screamed in chinese "走开！你们走开！不要抓我！" LOLx... and Meifong scratched the sister's face when she asked her to loOk into her eyes~~ and oso scratched a usher's hand when she helped her to hold on to her~ LOLX...
after that. i felt super tired. ha! mit Regina for dinner cum supper. Rubez, Jason, Wahkeong joined us after that. and we went hme with Singyee too. i really enjoy myself~ =)
sunday. wasnt allowed to go for service initially. but i sneaked out. and Meifong put me aeroplane. grrr!!! mit up with Jason @ Clementi and head str8 for expo. mit up with YongKang @ Tanah Merah too. and he is TALL.. when i mean tall. it means VERY TALL!. lolx. to date, my tallest fren is Weide. and now Yongkang~ lolx. tall ppl have fresher air?! LOLx. and i totally have nt enuf slp. thruout the service i try my best to stay awake. Yongkang always fell aslp! LOL.x and the way he tried to flip thru the bible verse is so funny. =)
went off str8 after service for CSSC duty. tiring. fell aslp while waiting fer train from expo to tanah merah. =x and when i board de train @ tanah merah to city direction. the train is filled with blackies!!! Meifong's frenz! =x ha~~ so scary. and i almost fell aslp when standin. ha!
the duty. boring. but the auntie there is very nice. ha! and she thought im a MALAY~~~~ apa!!!! haa!!!~ me malay?!!? meifong?!?!!? INDIAN~? haa!!!~ i was late for 1hr. Xinjie was late for 2hr. and the SPSU rep was late fer 5hrS!!!! lolx... ~~~
after duty. mit up with Yongkang again fer dinner. and after that went JEC for pool~ with Xiuli, Meifong, Junxiang and Joyce. laughing like mad. super off.. LOLx.. den went hme. mit up with WLNY ppl @ Pioneer mall. ha!!!~ had fun chatting. LOLx. went hme. and so happen that he called. asked him to call back awhile later. ended up he fall aslp. ha!! 可怜的老牛！！ hee!!!
monday skipped all my lesson and get a scoldin frm 老牛。。 coz he waked me up fer lesson yet i went for practice instead of lessons.. drumming rehearsal. went hme str8 after tat. den chit chat till 2+am den go slp.
wake up for my 10am lesson. but was late. reach the class at 1030am and less den 5mins later, lecturer declare class is over.. -_-"~~ went to computer lab rot rots.. den mit up with Singyee, Ryan, Rubez, Sharon and Jeremiah for lunch. had maths lesson after tat and i slp.. =x.. mit up with Wenna after tat and go clementi buy the polo shirts and home sweet hme.~~~ rot rot rot... and was so tired tat i slp frm 6pm-9pm. haa!!!~~~ slp at ard 2am....
wednesday. wake up for 1pm gems. but i nv go. coz was late fer class le. went for performance str8 instead. and 老牛scolded me again. coz i go CO instead of goin lessons. haiz.. sorry... performance is great. and i really had fun. the chit chat session after that is lame. lolx!!! had co practice after that. very tiring. my hand is so pain. haiz. half way thru the prac. Daniel called and told me that Billy is hospitalised. haiyo. lung infection. really muz pray for him... his health and protection upon him.. anyway. went hme str8 after practice. and yinzhi doggie wanna finish up my fishermen's fren sweet!!! grrr..... and im starving to death.. i haven eat for the whole day!!! went hme. bath and start coOkin phone porridge again. lolx!!!~ slp at ard 3am....
wake up fer 8am test. waited for Xinjie. miting 730am. but she 8am den reach. den we cab dwn to sch. 835i reach the clz. test haven start. ended up ard almost 9am den start. done the test with the helps of my classmates.. helping me to do.. =x i totally have no idea what am i doin.. haiz.... what a failure... whatever la.. den nw. bloggin.. finally!!! LOLx..
finally im done with my updating!!haa!!~~~ zelig tan! dun come mess my tagboard leh~~ haa!! dun try and get help frm my cg member la!!!!~~ grrrr!!! aileen u oso ar!!! dun gang up with the zelig tan lo!!! baddie u!!!
these few days, i really felt very loved. thanks. to give and to take. all the naggings, care and concern that u have shown me are really makin a difference in my life. and the calls that u made everyday. thanks. =)
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